Somebody said, ” Dude, you have enough qualifications, it’s easy for you to get a job “. I was flattered by that statement. I mean who wouldn’t be.
I mean I made castles in the air and I thought ah damn! I would get anything and everything is just at my fingertips. ooh! that was senseless! So I applied various exams with less or no preparation thinking that I would qualify every damn exam.
Sooner or later I realized, damn! I lack everything required for a particular job. My background wasn’t computer science and I had to code, I had to test, and identify the expressions. I had to find out errors in the code. I mean what the hell, I thought.
While I started to prepare for those exams, it took a heavy toll on me because one major thing is that I hated coding. I do hate it even now. But the strong will to earn my own money somehow kept me working like an ass for the corporate sucking industries. I put my best efforts, I drastically failed in every exam, some very close to zero. Why feel ashamed about this? yep, I got negative too!
I tried and tried, Finally got into one corporate sole sucking industry. “Yay! My happiness had no bounds”. I was very elated, happy, on cloud 9, and in seventh heaven but happiness wasn’t long-lasting. My college denied giving permission to the internship in that sole sucking industry. After various request letters and persuasions, they agreed to take us in batch 2 which would start in August 2020.
By the way, forgot one thing… Meanwhile, I was preparing for GRE to fly off abroad and study there to increase my so-called astounding skills and you know what despite lot of effort that went blah!
Somehow managed through all this, Baaaaam! entered corona in this typically messed up life! and everything stopped so suddenly. Everything became such a mess that before I could think of what was going on, things slipped away from my hands.
But thanks to the lockdown, I improved myself, I got hell a lot of confidence, got a big break which I always wanted. Along with that, family time and extracurricular activities were added bonuses.
Basically, the above thing thought me that, nothing is in your control. Whatever has to happen will happen no matter what kind of efforts you put in. But this doesn’t mean you completely rely on fate and laze around and sit. You have to put your efforts at the same time accept things coming in your way.
I know amidst this pandemic everyone is fighting their own battles, and some are fighting to get back to life. All I can say that never lose hope and confidence because if you lose them you are nothing but a living corpse.
Find yourself, love yourself. Stay home, Stay safe!
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